I’m back, baby!
I’m absolutely positive that there is a way to do what I want to be doing (be a wizard) and not run out of money, go crazy, and starve to death. I’m sure of it! I’m gonna keep trying until I figure it out. I bet you can only go so many different kinds of crazy before you become immune to it and I think that eventually you can even make money out of the fact that you’re not making money.
To recap: Back in February I deleted my Twitter, YouTube, and Patreon. This was part of some sort of ad-hoc esoteric ritual I felt somewhat compelled to follow through on. Following some difficulties and challenges I believe this ritual resulted in me being stably and well employed for the first time in… some time. The best part is that my employment is only at around 30 hours per week which allows me extra time to focus on wizarding.
Once I reached a point where I knew I’d be able to pay down my debt and re-establish myself financially I started planning next steps for my wizarding. Shortly after that I implemented them.
I’ve gone quite analog.
What am I working on now?
I’ve been doing a lot of stuff since I started to go offline back in February. I still have a few social media accounts and plan to delete them in the next few days. I’m active in a number of esoteric communities and am enjoying interacting with folks in environments like Discord, or in person.
I’m writing my first paper
I started working on this right after I deleted Twitter/YouTube/Patreon… although it’s stalled. Big time. I appear to be experiencing writers block because of a spiritual crisis I’m having around a scientific paper.. seems like a likely problem for a wizard to have. Honestly I would prefer that someone else write it instead of me. I’ve been sharing this image of it in the hopes that someone will volunteer:
My hope is that resuming and completing my Social Media Deletion ritual will provide me with the energy or insight I need to continue to work on that paper. I understand that it’s an important paper and that something like it must be written in order to bypass a number of the blocks our civilization is currently experiencing— I just can’t work on it right now.
(Probably because of one of the types of crazy I went)
I’m working on my 2nd book of poetry
I’m really pleased with my first book. I published it shortly after deleting Twitter (an obviously flawed content promotion strategy).
ESOTERIC: poems about reality
ESOTERIC: poems about reality eBook : Lortie, Eric: Amazon.ca: Kindle Store
That book includes a number of poems which were already published here and in other places, as well as some new ones.
My second book is tentatively titled Fight the World. Here’s a poem from it:
The Fight Against Bureaucracy
Bureaucracy is violence.
The slap in the face of hours of stolen time.
Pilfered and pillaged
The imperfections of acceptable inefficiency
through asymmetrical power dynamics.
The unintended sadism of
not giving enough of a fuck.
The unwillingness to innovate
because the cost of inefficiency
is only measured in life.
Serving esoteric systems and
Controlled by no one.
Out of Control™ because
it’s Not My Job™.
Service sans substance.
Other weird stuff
I spend a lot of time in the woods now. I’m hoping to cut down a lot of my tech use, a difficult challenge given that my desk has 4 computer monitors on it and a VR headset next to it. At the very least I’m going to spend more time in nature this summer. (Update: I haven’t played VR in about 6 weeks. It’s been a nice shift, though I still like VR and remember it fondly. I’m sure I’ll start up again at some point)
I’ve uncovered a pretty big cover-up in my local political space that I may explore or attempt to highlight — although I’m not sure yet. I pointed other people at it in the hopes they’d follow through instead. That seems to be a pattern with me right now, but of course I’ve only ever failed at important things like this so maybe this new strategy is what will be effective. (Update: https://ericlortie.medium.com/conspiracy-analysis-was-there-a-significant-covid-19-outbreak-in-nova-scotia-canada-over-a-month-db0fb5dcf9b3)
There won’t be a Patreon this time. Waiting for people to decide to give me a cup of coffee every month while I’m actively trying to understand and reshape global civilization is a pretty big swing and a miss. This time I’ll just do a good job of funding things myself. I’d like to keep myself out of Mediums subscription service but that may not be possible. I’m sure I’ll ramble about it in the future in an attempt to be transparent.
I’ll be updating/tweaking some of my content in the following days as I revisit things after my time away. As always, thanks for reading. I’d appreciate if you shared this stuff.